HAPPY 2 MONTH B-DAY!!

Happy 2 month Birthday to my sweety baby Kian Adley!!!

"Ani Tamid Ohav Otcha".

Bike riding and the trails...

Here in Maple City we have a lot of bike trails. They are all very nice and the city does alot to keep them looking beautiful.
The one near our home is called the Pumpkinvine Trail. It's 10 miles there and back. Last week we went on a bike ride as a family for the first time since I had my baby. We didn't go the whole 10 miles but did 4-5 miles. Then tonight we packed a picnic supper and headed out on another trail which takes you down to a castle park and then under a new bridge they just built for those who bike and walk the trail. At least another 4-5 miles tonight too.
Bike riding is what we do for fun together! We all love it! Finding new places to explore and bike ride is fun too! :)
Here are a few pics of us and the Pumpkinvine Trail..

 Micah..

My dh get's farm fresh eggs from a man who lives near his place of employment. They are so wonderful and we just had to take a picture of the size of the eggs compared to store bought eggs. They are much bigger...

 

Multitude Mondays; Thankfulness

141. short overalls that finally fit

142. 29 lbs of my pregnancy weight gain lost!!!

143. relaxing summer days

144. my nursing corner

145. baby boys with red curly hair and big blue eyes

146. weight watchers program

147. Yeshua's Spirit living within me; changing me every day

148. a special friend who is coming to IN that I get to see!

149. tomatoes

150. the smell of freshly cut grass..

 

Rise Up Men of G-d..

Think this song says it all...




Rise up O men of God,
Have done with lesser things.
Give heart and soul and mind and strength,
To serve the King of Kings,
To serve the King of Kings.

Rise up O men of God,
His Kingdom tarries long,
Bring in the day of brotherhood,
And end the night of wrong,
And end the night of wrong.

Rise up O men of God,
The Church for you doth wait.
Send forth to serve the needs of men
In Christ our strength is great,
In Christ our strength is great.

Lift high the Cross of Christ,
Tread where His feet have trod,
As brothers of the Son of Man,
Rise up O men of God,
Rise up O men of God.

Rise up O men of God,
Have done with lesser things.
Give heart and soul and mind and strength,
To serve the King of Kings,
To serve the King of Kings.

swaying to what moves me..

I have been feeling the crunchiness calling me. I have this longing to put on my long ruffled skirt, get out my sandals, put a headband in my hair and sway with the movement of the wind...

I long for home and being busy with the things of motherhood..like nesting only after the baby arrives instead of before.

I love sunshine and mornings where the sun streams in the windows and brightens up the gloom.

I have a sitting area in my dining room where my nursing corner is..I find such peace sitting in my glider nursing my sweety baby and reading devotions or books that uplift my spirit.

I feel a calling and need to make healthy bread..the smell filling up the entire house. And wholesome meals that nourish these beautiful children I have been blessed with.
 
I love to light candles and let the aroma fill my senses. 

Cool dirt on my hands as I plant living things into the soil and pray blessings over each one.

Such beauty surrounds me and touches me deep inside..

It moves me...

Pretender...

 I am a pretender. I pretend..I pretend I feel great. I pretend life is good and I am always happy..when others ask me how I am  I say good or alright when I am not..yes I am a pretender..

When I am weak I pretend to be strong..when I am mad I cover it up with laughter..when I want the whole entire world to go away I shove it deep down inside and go on..

When I don't want to be a mama anymore and am at my last bit of patience I simply ignore it and push it away..I certainly don't allow myself to own it.
 
I am a pretender...

When I don't have it all together I say I do...when I need help I never ask...when my daughter dies or another daughter is sick I plaster a smile on my face and get it done.. .I am strong...I tell myself I need no one...

When I want to scream I don't...
  When I want to run away I don't..
When I need some space I don't take it..
  When I need alone time I feel too guilty to do it...

  Yes, I pretend...

Postpartum Depression

It's not easy for me to admit I am weak or failing or at a loss...I should know better..
After my sweet RuthAnne died I went through a severe depression. At the time I thought it was all just grief but looking back I can see it was severe postpartum depression mixed in with grief, etc.. She was only about a month old when she died so I was still newly pp and everything in my life fell apart!

Since her death I have not felt the same nor been the same. Some of it good and some of it bad..

After my son's birth in  Oct. 2007 I went through some major health issues to do with my pelvis etc.. and it was then during this time that I began to have issues, feelings that I couldn't explain so I ignored them the best I could. After his birth an online friend told me she thought I might have ppd.. I just dismissed it. I am too strong for that!

Thats what I told myself after RuthAnne died too and my body literally begin reacting physically and I couldn't function any longer...it took years to get out of that pit. :(    

So this time maybe I have learned from the past..that I am just human flesh.. that I am weak in and of myself..I can admit my feelings and what I am dealing with and begin to heal and get better more quickly.

So I am not going to pretend anymore. I am going to face ppd head on and deal with it. I am going to be proactive..taking herbs for depression, talking about it and allowing myself down time...

I am going to stay in G-d's word as that helps me the most right now. And take advantage of the good moments like right now..why I am posting this..

Pray for me if you think of it..

Waiting with Expectation

I wait for the Lord, I expectantly wait, and in His word do I hope.~ Psalm 130:5

So much of my life can be summed up in the scripture verse above. Learning to wait on the L-rd in stillness..putting my hope and expectation in Him. Waiting, but not just simply waiting but waiting with expectation!

Putting my hope in Him and not the things of this world that I can see, touch, taste and feel but the things which are beyond comprehension.. things not of this world.
 
Waiting with expectation implies action....
While I wait I continue to live for Him, in His word...finding my hope living there.
  So much of it lives in my heart.. something that is intangible..no words can explain.

Then the day dawns and with it brings the culmination of my waiting and hoping... a work complete for today...and tomorrow begins anew...