I Am a Fighter and I Have a Mighty Father!!

 Warning: this post isn't pretty. But it's honest.

Over this last year I have been battered and bruised. I have been hit over the head with a baseball bat with a lot of ugliness.

piece of shit- Slam
asshole- Slam
failure as a mom- Slam
failure as a wife- Slam
die- Slam
failure as a Christian- Slam
liar- Slam
worthless- Slam
abuser- Slam
hater- Slam
I hate you- Slam
you deserve it- Slam
crazy- Slam

and on and on....

It's a fight everyday to grab hold of the truth and let it sink deep into my heart and head.
It's a fight to not cry, every second of everyday.
It's a fight to find the truth stuck buried inside the lies.
It's a fight to think clearly and not fall underneath the stress and pain.
It's a fight to find myself in the heap of lies and distortions swirling about me.
It's a fight everyday to listen to His voice.
It's a fight to forgive those who inflict pain with their words and lies.
It's a fight to forgive those who have betrayed me.
It's a fight!!
But I AM A FIGHTER! and I HAVE A MIGHTY FATHER!

I am worthy in Jesus.
I am His beloved.
I am beautiful.
I am imperfect but He loves me anyway.
I am redeemed by the Creator of the Universe.
I am His daughter.
I am royalty.
I am strong in Christ when I am weak.
I fail but He helps me try again.
I am a sinner but saved by His amazing and free gift of love.
I am just a woman made of flesh and bone but He is a Warrior and fights for me.
I don't have to be a perfect mama, wife or friend. I am human. Jesus made me that way. And loves me anyway.
I have His peace which surpasses all understanding.
I am an Overcomer by the Blood of the Lamb!
I am accepted in all my failings.
I have been chosen by the Almighty God and adopted as His child.
I know He is working beauty for ashes in my life.
I am complete in Christ.
I am accepted.
I am a new creation.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I AM A FIGHTER and I HAVE A MIGHTY FATHER!