Again Father has been teaching me about love. Scripture tells us love is obeying His commandments and laying our lives down for our brother/sister. (Ephesians)
Laying our life down for someone else isn't always easy. It can be hard when we feel angry or are hurt.
I chose years ago to love others right where they were. To love them regardless of our differences. My reason for this choice was simple: Love like I wish I had been loved. I know what it is to feel unworthy and unloved. To feel that you aren't worth it and deserve nothing of any value. I wanted to offer my love to others so maybe I could change one person's day. I could make one person feel deserving and lovable. And maybe even change a life?
So, I have felt my own hurt and anger lately. That ugly word REJECTED! And yet, the Father's still small voice asking me to keep on loving regardless what was happening, yes regardless of what was happening TO ME! And isn't that the true test? Can I, will I keep loving others even when it's hard? Even when my heart feels broken? Even when I feel rejected? Can I keep loving so my heart doesn't turn cold? So it doesn't dry up and bitterness well up inside the dryness?
I sat listening to scripture being read and the question being asked, "My daughter if you choose love all will be well." "Love them like I love them"
After days of tears and turmoil I lifted my eyes to the heavens and said "Yes, Father! I choose love!" Peace in that instant rained down and filled my heart.
Today the enemy came trying to make a mess. Stirring the pot..making that same old feeling of rejection and hurt rise to the surface. But love came to the rescue. I again made that choice, mercy love...that same mercy love Christ showed me at Calvary. That same mercy love where I stand before the King in my filthiness yet, clothed in white.
My heart wide open and full of embrace. Loving and laying down my life for my brothers. Obeying my Father..
