I want to...

These last few weeks I haven't been feeling very gracious towards my children. I just feel like I have given all I can..

There were things with the children's behavior that caused these feelings and then of course being at the end of my pregnancy and all that comes with that added to it.

I don't want to feel this way so today I took action. I redid our chore chart changing chores and adding some of the younger ones. I then made up a laundry chart, cooking chart and "Did You"...chart for the cleaning of bedrooms. I also set new rules for morning routines. What's to be accomplished by what time, etc.. I set a new currency for chores done without being asked. All of these things were talked over with the children so they are aware of what's expected of them.

And the next thing I plan to do is R-E-L-A-X! I am hard on myself and want everything to be just so... I like order and to be organized having a perfectly clean home. I want children who say nothing but yes ma'am and then obey without question. My children are well behaved but they are not perfect. We are still in the process of training them. In reality all these things won't always happen exactly like I want them to. There will be times of setbacks and frustration. Times I am overwhelmed and tired.
I can relax; knowing that my children know what's expected and what will happen if it's not done and done well. Cause and effect...obedience and disobedience.

I want to learn to be uptight less and love them more! I want to spend time loving on them and cuddling; reading books and laughing. This is my greatest goal as their mama!
I want to learn to understand my olders and to learn to listen when they share. Growing up is such a hard time for the kiddos and for mama and daddy! I don't have all the answers but I am willing to learn..willing to let the L-rd guide me as I walk in His ways.

And I need more patience...lots of it! Patience to let them learn by messing up and the consequences that come because of their choices.

And most important I need to be in His Word as much as I can. Soaking up His wisdom! I will have another baby blessing soon. And life gets overwhelming but thru His strength and the endurance He gives I can be all He wants me to be.

(NKJV) Psalms 73:26 My flesh and my heart fail; [But] God [is] the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

(NKJV) Psalms 55:22 Cast your burden on the LORD, And He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.

(NKJV) Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

(NKJV) Philippians 3:13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing [I do,] forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,

Deeper Water

I just finished Deeper Water by Robert Whitlow.

It's about a 2nd year law student at the University of Georgia who gets a summer job as a clerk at a prestigious law firm in Savannah, Georgia.

What's so unique about this story is this character was homeschooled until high school and comes from a Christian family. She is the first of 5 children and lives on a small farm in Powell Station, Georgia.
Later in the story we also meet another associate lawyer who was homeschooled all the way through.
Homeschooling is painted in a positive light and I was very impressed.

The main character is a also a very obedient young lady. She consults her parents on decisions and as a family they pray together before making choices.

While at the summer clerk job she is given a case that stretches and challenges her. Thruout this case she learns more about herself and how good G-d is. Even bringing the main person in her case to salvation.

I found this story to be enjoyable and interesting!

Crochet & Multitude Monday..

Progress pics on crochet projects..

Micah working with the big hooks for the first time..

Quentin's blanket..almost finished!!

Gabby's first baby blanket..


I haven't made anymore progress on my baby blanket but am hoping to get some more work done on it soon.



101. pretty colors

102. digital cameras

103. front loaders

104. vanilla chai

105. pencils

106. that I am a super conqueror
Romans 8: 35 Who will separate us from the love of the Messiah? Trouble? Hardship? Persecution? Hunger? Poverty? Danger? War? 36 As the Tanakh puts it, "For your sake we are being put to death all day long, we are considered sheep to be slaughtered." 37 No, in all these things we are superconquerors, through the one who has loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor other heavenly rulers, neither what exists nor what is coming, 39 neither powers above nor powers below, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from the love of God which comes to us through the Messiah Yeshua, our Lord.

107. black shirts

108. right relationship

109. the choice to speak or remain quiet..

110. baby items

falling forward

Today I started a new book called falling forward by Sandi Patty. I wasn't sure if the L-rd had anything for me in this book and almost didn't see the point in reading it. Her story is not my own but as I have been reading I have found that so much of what she writes hits home for me. I just want to share a few quotes from this book here with you;

If only humans could see our sin from G-d's eye view! Christians would probably judge my outward sin as the worst one I've ever committed. I probably would have agreed. After all, my Big Sin had huge consequences and hurt many people. But in truth, it was the private "spiritual sin" that began my eventual prodigal slide into public pig slop, so to speak.

When "pop-up" pain happens and I feel frozen in my failure, I just try to imagine my Father running down the road to meet me. I look in his eyes-brimming with acceptance -and remember that it isn't about my failures, it is about His love. It's about being G-d's beloved daughter, who is always welcome home. Then I dry my tears, lift my eyes toward heaven and sing with all the gratitude my heart can hold the song He gave back to me.

Visualize yourself in the arms of Yeshua. Let Him hold you and remind you that you are His beloved child. Your picture is still on His refrigerator.

First of all, you are not the sum of your failures. You are not your slips or sins. G-d doesn't read one page in your life and call it a book.

Allow your past, even your worst failures, into your present only as part of the experience that led up to the person you are today. But do not let one experience determine who you will be tomorrow.

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If you are in need of a good book to read may I suggest this one? You will be blessed by reading it!

Crochet and my biggest helper..

We are still working on crocheting around our house..
Quentin and I are working on blankets for little ahava.

My blanket..


Quentin's blanket..


I am sure most homes have a child who loves things to be neat and tidy and will spend countless hours cleaning without complaint?? In our home that would be Micah. He loves keeping things neat and tidy and begs me to give him more chores and will just start cleaning randomly without any asking on my part.
Here he is cleaning out the homeschool drawers..


He is such a great little helper!!

Multitude Mondays; Gratitude

91. homemade pizza

92. iced raspberry mocha latte

93. generous friends willing to share with me

94. willingness to learn

95. Elohim's favor

96. ahava

97. hands that can reach out to those in need

98. a voice that can share Hashem's LOVE

99. toothpicks!

100. The Mountain; where I plan to be...

6 On this mountain ADONAI-Tzva'ot will make for all peoples a feast of rich food and superb wines, delicious, rich food and superb, elegant wines. 7 On this mountain he will destroy the veil which covers the face of all peoples, the veil enshrouding all the nations. 8 He will swallow up death forever. Adonai ELOHIM will wipe away the tears from every face, and he will remove from all the earth the disgrace his people suffer. For ADONAI has spoken. 9 On that day they will say, "See! This is our God! We waited for him to save us. This is ADONAI ; we put our hope in him. We are full of joy, so glad he saved us!" 10 For on this mountain the hand of ADONAI will rest.

My sweet girl in the spotlight!

Wanted to shine the spotlight on someone very special...

Sometimes I look at my sweet girl and am shocked at just how big she is getting. It seems yesterday she was born into daddy's hands in our bedroom! Almost 4 1/2 years ago now..

She has such a BIG personality! She is such a joy to her daddy and me! She is our youngest daughter.
Her laugh is contagious and her smile also! Her big blue eyes are so beautiful and full of so much expression!

She nursed until about 2 months ago and still on occasion asks for some milkies! My longest nursling so far.

She is our miracle!
I am so thankful for her each and everyday!

I love you ZaraLayna Christine Grace!!

Hungering For Elohim

Each pregnancy teaches me something new about my L-rd. And about myself..

This pregnancy I have realized, quite recently actually that my focus has been on my struggles and worries instead of on the One who holds all my tomorrows in His hand.
Worries sweep us away and we sink literally into the waters where more worries await us.
Peter walked on the water to meet Christ but when he begin to fear and worry that he would sink; taking his eyes off of Christ he begin to sink. And he begin to fear..just moments before this man was walking on water!!

Hungering for Elohim and His ways...willing to put my eyes back on Him..seeing where my lack of faith has taken me from walking on the water to sinking into the deep.

Belief in what He wants to do in my life. What He is willing to do..
Am I willing to let Him work through me in newness? Trusting Him for all He has planned? Putting all the worries aside and letting the hunger and thirst pull me along to the G-d who can satisfy!

Yes, I can meet Him at the river...