El Roi

Been a hard week here. It's at times like this I cry out, "Father, what do you want from me? What I am to do now? " I listen in the silence for an answer. That voice in the stillness...

I try to rationalize life. Maybe now? Maybe this is why? It was because.. For sure now.....
But rationalizing gets you nowhere. You end up on the same road stuck at the beginning. Your feet haven't moved.

I listen to the stories of old. Of faithful men & women. Comparing their lives to mine. Trying to understand. To find the answers to those questions my heart is full of.

And today I read words that resonate deep within me.......they bounce off the corners of my mind.....ring with Truth.

".......those who limp know how to see." (Ann Voskamp- One Thousand Gifts)

Those with wounds can truly see. We have wrestled with life & pain. We have walked a road riddled with trials.....we limp just as Jacob of old after wrestling with the Father.  But now we can SEE.

Glory.  His name.

And so I continue to ask my questions.....I lay them at the cross where all my answers can be found.  And if I seek Father promises me I will find..  I will find Him.. the Answer.

El Roi ~ The God who sees.....the One Who sees me..