I haven't written at all in my blog for quite awhile. To be honest I have had so little joy these past many months. Ive been walking a hard rode but thankfully the light has shined in my darkness and I'm feeling more like myself again.
I want to blog for the memories. I'm learning how valuable they are. That's one thing that can never be taken from me. Not with lies, hurt, anger or distortions. They are mine. Memories remind us of sweetness and joy and most importantly of God's goodness and faithfulness in our lives. Someday I can share them with my children. I can hand them over in a treasure box sealed with the many tears I have cried, the many prayers I have prayed along with the laughter and joy felt in each one.
I am so proud of my children. Ive been blessed with some amazing people! My two oldest sons are Marines and they are both doing great. I just want them to be happy and have successful lives even if that looks different than the picture I have in my mind. I don't expect perfection. I just want them to be happy and enjoy life living it to the fullest, loving others and trying their best at succeeding at all they do.
My daughter G is a sweet blessing also. She spent the entire summer 10 hours away working on staff at a Christian camp. She did great especially since it was her first time away from home for any amount of time. She's hoping to return this next summer.
When we went to pick her up I was so happy to see how she had blossomed and grown. Her faith had grown and changed. She saw adults living out there faith before her and realized that faith is a living breathing thing. She, for the first time saw for herself who she is in Christ. She had her own personal experience with him. I looked at her with such joy as she shared with me how she finds her worth in Him and not others or things of this world. She shines!! She is so much like her Daddy. She has his loving giving heart. I love seeing that in her.
My other children are growing! Yes, they do grow so quickly. I am trying to remember to cherish each day. It's hard sometimes. I get tired and worn down and when you are walking through a storm that life has brought your way it's so easy to get caught up in it and forget to look around at all the blessings right in front of you. I've been guilty of that. So I'm trying harder to store each sweet memory away in that box of treasure.
Can you believe that Q is 15! Time slips by so quickly! His older brother gave him his first cell phone for his birthday. He is loving it. Most of the time you can find him on it playing a game or texting his brothers or grandparents. Ive enjoyed being able to text him now too! We've had to set some limits so schoolwork gets done but he's doing well with them.
M is 13. He brings so much laughter into my life. He is a bubble of joy! He always has a smile or a laugh even when things are hard. I've been thinking on his twin sister a lot this month. She passed away when she was about a month old. I wish she was here to share in her brother's life. I know they would have such fun together and she would see what I see when look at him.
My 2 year old A started saying, "I love you Mama!" about a month ago. It is just the sweetest thing I could ever hear! She and her baby sister E are so much fun! I enjoy them so much. And they enjoy each other too. Their Daddy jokes they are going to be like our oldest two boys were when they were little once E is walking. And my oldest two boys were a handful. Into everything and causing lots of trouble. They egged each other on and were always finding new ways to cause mischief! :)
I turns 12 next month! He is such a caring boy, always wanting to help. He does have a temper though but he's getting better. We all have ways we can improve. I'm proud of him for how well he is doing with it.
K is 5 and still my shadow. He calls me his cutie. :) He still says the funniest things and makes us all laugh. He is a handful too! He is so smart and I think trouble just finds him. :)
Z just turned 10. We had a tea party for her bday. I had such a great time decorating the table and house for her. I made it very girlie and beautiful for her. I wanted to make her feel special and very lady like. 9 girls came over to celebrate with her and it was a lot of fun! We did the cha cha slide with all the girls and it was so cute watching them all!
JN turns 8 this weekend. He is doing so much better with his letters and numbers. And as he learns them his vocabulary is improving too. He is awesome actually at numbers and Math. He is smart! He loves our hens and new chicks which have started to lay. Everyday he goes out looking for their brown eggs and hopes that the green/blue ones will be there too. Animals make him happy. His focus. I want to encourage him in what he enjoys and likes.
My husband and I are doing well. Marriage isn't easy and it takes work. Everyday you have to be willing to work and understand and put someone else before yourself. Not always easy things to do but I've been blessed with a good man who sees all my ugly and loves me anyway. He cherishes me. I am so thankful for him!
I have had to take a hard look at myself over these past months. I had to face my demons so to speak and deal with things I didn't want too. I had to admit my failures and accept my faults. And I have had to let go of what others say and think and recognize truth. I've changed a lot but I'm stronger because of it. I love the song "You knew Me When" by Leona Lewis. It describes very much the changes I've experienced. I've learned to forgive myself, to know and recognize truth, to allow myself to be human and to not let anyone tell me what I'm worth. I think it's a good change. God uses all things for our good. Even though they are painful He takes them and gives us beauty. That reminds me of a very good book I read, "Beauty of Broken" by Elisa Morgan. Read it! You won't regret it!
Hopefully the next time I post here on my blog will not be so long. I am going to try to do better and record memories!
I want to blog for the memories. I'm learning how valuable they are. That's one thing that can never be taken from me. Not with lies, hurt, anger or distortions. They are mine. Memories remind us of sweetness and joy and most importantly of God's goodness and faithfulness in our lives. Someday I can share them with my children. I can hand them over in a treasure box sealed with the many tears I have cried, the many prayers I have prayed along with the laughter and joy felt in each one.
I am so proud of my children. Ive been blessed with some amazing people! My two oldest sons are Marines and they are both doing great. I just want them to be happy and have successful lives even if that looks different than the picture I have in my mind. I don't expect perfection. I just want them to be happy and enjoy life living it to the fullest, loving others and trying their best at succeeding at all they do.
My daughter G is a sweet blessing also. She spent the entire summer 10 hours away working on staff at a Christian camp. She did great especially since it was her first time away from home for any amount of time. She's hoping to return this next summer.
When we went to pick her up I was so happy to see how she had blossomed and grown. Her faith had grown and changed. She saw adults living out there faith before her and realized that faith is a living breathing thing. She, for the first time saw for herself who she is in Christ. She had her own personal experience with him. I looked at her with such joy as she shared with me how she finds her worth in Him and not others or things of this world. She shines!! She is so much like her Daddy. She has his loving giving heart. I love seeing that in her.
My other children are growing! Yes, they do grow so quickly. I am trying to remember to cherish each day. It's hard sometimes. I get tired and worn down and when you are walking through a storm that life has brought your way it's so easy to get caught up in it and forget to look around at all the blessings right in front of you. I've been guilty of that. So I'm trying harder to store each sweet memory away in that box of treasure.
Can you believe that Q is 15! Time slips by so quickly! His older brother gave him his first cell phone for his birthday. He is loving it. Most of the time you can find him on it playing a game or texting his brothers or grandparents. Ive enjoyed being able to text him now too! We've had to set some limits so schoolwork gets done but he's doing well with them.
M is 13. He brings so much laughter into my life. He is a bubble of joy! He always has a smile or a laugh even when things are hard. I've been thinking on his twin sister a lot this month. She passed away when she was about a month old. I wish she was here to share in her brother's life. I know they would have such fun together and she would see what I see when look at him.
My 2 year old A started saying, "I love you Mama!" about a month ago. It is just the sweetest thing I could ever hear! She and her baby sister E are so much fun! I enjoy them so much. And they enjoy each other too. Their Daddy jokes they are going to be like our oldest two boys were when they were little once E is walking. And my oldest two boys were a handful. Into everything and causing lots of trouble. They egged each other on and were always finding new ways to cause mischief! :)
I turns 12 next month! He is such a caring boy, always wanting to help. He does have a temper though but he's getting better. We all have ways we can improve. I'm proud of him for how well he is doing with it.
K is 5 and still my shadow. He calls me his cutie. :) He still says the funniest things and makes us all laugh. He is a handful too! He is so smart and I think trouble just finds him. :)
Z just turned 10. We had a tea party for her bday. I had such a great time decorating the table and house for her. I made it very girlie and beautiful for her. I wanted to make her feel special and very lady like. 9 girls came over to celebrate with her and it was a lot of fun! We did the cha cha slide with all the girls and it was so cute watching them all!
JN turns 8 this weekend. He is doing so much better with his letters and numbers. And as he learns them his vocabulary is improving too. He is awesome actually at numbers and Math. He is smart! He loves our hens and new chicks which have started to lay. Everyday he goes out looking for their brown eggs and hopes that the green/blue ones will be there too. Animals make him happy. His focus. I want to encourage him in what he enjoys and likes.
My husband and I are doing well. Marriage isn't easy and it takes work. Everyday you have to be willing to work and understand and put someone else before yourself. Not always easy things to do but I've been blessed with a good man who sees all my ugly and loves me anyway. He cherishes me. I am so thankful for him!
I have had to take a hard look at myself over these past months. I had to face my demons so to speak and deal with things I didn't want too. I had to admit my failures and accept my faults. And I have had to let go of what others say and think and recognize truth. I've changed a lot but I'm stronger because of it. I love the song "You knew Me When" by Leona Lewis. It describes very much the changes I've experienced. I've learned to forgive myself, to know and recognize truth, to allow myself to be human and to not let anyone tell me what I'm worth. I think it's a good change. God uses all things for our good. Even though they are painful He takes them and gives us beauty. That reminds me of a very good book I read, "Beauty of Broken" by Elisa Morgan. Read it! You won't regret it!
Hopefully the next time I post here on my blog will not be so long. I am going to try to do better and record memories!
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