Confusion is the word....

Do you ever feel your mind full to the brim and ready to explode with all the conflicting info out there? There is so much stuff to sift through regarding our health; what's good for you and what's not, treatments for diseases; what works and what doesn't. And in regards to our Faith; what's truth and what's not; what's just man's opinions and what's not; what's man's traditions and what isn't. What do we follow and what do we put aside.. You can fine a myriad of so called Bible Scholars out there who will tell you where and how the bible tells us to do this or that..and then there are a myriad of Bible Scholars on the other side of any issue who will show you other scriptures that say we shouldn't do this or that. WHEW! Can anyone say confusing?!!!

So I have decided to do what we should all do anyway, and that's seek the Father and His wisdom only.. Yeshua so graciously reminded me this past weekend that He has sent the Holy Spirit as my Helper and guide who will lead me into all Truth! It is possible to simply forget for a time that He is always there to help and that is where I found myself. I have become so confused and so focused on getting it right whatever that means??? that I forgot that I have the Spirit of G-d to guide me and to help me. And as a bonus he also brings me comfort!

I have not been hearing His voice and this brought me much sadness. I was laying in my bed pouring my heart out to him and although I wasn't on my knees because a sweet baby boy was breastfeeding; in my mind I knelt before the Most High and spoke to Him. I asked Him why I wasn't hearing His voice anymore..and as quick as the blink of an eye He gave me an answer. He told me that I had not been listening...Such clarity in that instant. I have been so focused on my performance that I have not been listening to His voice! And it grew dimmer the more I performed until it literally was gone....  

I shared all my confusion and emotion with my sweet man and He read me scripture from Galatians reminding me that my righteousness is achieved through Yeshua's sacrifice and my trust and faithfulness to Him. I can not perform my way to heaven or to righteousness. While living a G-d honoring life and obeying His mitzvot (commands) I must not forget this important truth!

So while these important issues were being dealt with and Yeshua was answering some of my questions there are still many things that need answers.

We had a family meeting with the children and together my dh and I are praying and seeking the Truth..knowing that the Holy Spirit is our helper, comforter and guide into all Truth.

But when He, the Spirit of truth, comes, He will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; He will speak only what He hears, and He will tell you what is yet to come.~ John 16:13


One thing I have learned and know is that Yeshua loves me and that I don't have to perform. And I know that without the Holy Spirit in my life guiding and helping me I am lost. If I stop hearing the voice of Yeshua I have nothing and am wandering in a world as a blind man...without these two important things my faith is dead and meaningless....then what good is it to have the actions but without the Spirit? Faith must coexist with action; with works to truly be faith. The trick here is to not let our works become that of performance as our righteousness comes from Yeshua and Him alone. And it is tricky...I am still trying to figure it all out..
The minute we think we have all the answers and are the ones walking right is the minute we will be humbled and brought low..

Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed that he does not fall.~ 1 Corinthians 10:12  

In all of this I just want Yeshua..and Him alone..my heart yearns for Him...