Since my sweety baby Kian Adley was born I have felt like life has been whizzing by in a great big blur. I would just start to feel like I was gaining ground and then something else would happen.. I begin to see that the enemy was trying to derail me...
And perhaps for a time he did...
But during these weeks and the trials that have accompanied them still He has been with me speaking into the quiet and into my heart.
He has been laying on my heart the need not to only prepare physically but also spiritually. So often we find that we feel we have to take action and stock up, fill our pantries and cupboards. Buy in bulk and be prepared for the coming hard times. And these are all good things but if we have neglected our spiritual preparation than we have forgotten the most important part!
Our hearts need to be prepared for the coming days. We need to work our spiritual muscles training them for the days ahead.
Looking to the L-rd, seeking Him and learning from Him. We need to find that zealousness we have lost; that fire and let it burn away the fodder in our hearts and lives!
We need to be listening to His voice. Listening over the things in life that distract us from the BIG picture..so often we get caught up in such silliness and somehow we let ourselves believe it really matters..
And what is His still small voice speaking to us? For me, it's these words whispered over and over in my ear.....TRUST and OBEY...
Two words that hold so much...When I am worried and afraid...when life seems overwhelming I cling to His command just to trust and obey and I find comfort and that peace which surpasses understanding.
So yes, I was derailed but as I looked up I saw Yeshua's hand held out to me; beckoning me...And when He held my grasp firmly in His the skies cleared, the storms calmed and my little train was firmly back where it belonged...
Ambra,
ReplyDeleteI admire your honesty on this! I understand what it feels like to be derailed like that myself. I'm particularly sensitive spiritually and emotionally after birth and I find that it is both the most enlightened times and the most vulnerable times in my life. To be honest I think so few people have natural births and I think it's easier to jump back on track (for lck of a better term) when you've had a natural birth. hospital births can so often push away the spiritual side of birth I can't imagine what it would feel like to deal with that.
anyhow I just wanted to send you encouragement. I don't know if I did a good job though heh
Shalom, I'm new here, i was on Andi's and saw your comment and of course had to follow. I'm amazed '11 children' may Yahweh continue to bless you and your family. Loved seeing the photos of your family.
ReplyDeleteblessings and shalom
carmen
Amen, Ambra!!!!!! Great post.
ReplyDeleteWonderful post. I think we all get derailed at one time or another, it's finding out way back that is important. {{hugs}}
ReplyDeleteThe spiritual preparedness is much harder to do...this is often the "things" we lay aside and will get to later, but later always comes. Praise HIM, that you are now not..derailed!
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